Getting started. … And later … Never got started. Not a single word written. I have no idea why. Trust me, I asked myself that question a thousand times. I have no answer.
—This is not the wayWorking to increase my daily average word count.
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Getting started. … And later … Never got started. Not a single word written. I have no idea why. Trust me, I asked myself that question a thousand times. I have no answer.
—This is not the wayWorking to increase my daily average word count.
Was going to call this “Break My Daily Word Count Record—Attempt #15” but I’ve decided to put that on hold until the weekdays. Or more specifically, for days where I feel I can give the effort my undivided attention. Not every day is a good day for going after a record. Today feels like one of those not-so-good days.
This is actually the third post I’ve written today. I scrapped the first two. They’re in Evernote, same as this one, so they’re not gone forever, but I’m just going to ignore them. ;)
That said, I still expect to have a productive writing day. Or I’m making the attempt, anyway.
…
Or not. Said about nine and a half hours and 45 words later.
6:06 PM: 45
10:15 PM: 506
I think I’ve also decided to post my little progress reports as “status updates” or “asides” instead of full-on posts. :D But yes, this just brings home the point that weekend days are unpredictable.
Fourteen is many more attempts than I thought would be necessary to reach my current one day word count goal, considering how successful I’ve found working on multiples stories each day to be for helping me reach higher word counts.
But fourteen isn’t really that bad, considering how long that record has stood.
5,475 has been my record for the most words I’ve written in one day since June 17, 2013.
And … ayk!! I had to look that up, and although my spreadsheet tells me the max() number in my daily word count sheet, it didn’t tell me that that particular entry had a note beside it! After reading that note, I don’t actually think that’s my high word count. :o I’ve been operating on the belief for nearly a month now that I managed to write 5,475 words in one day but my note indicates I might have “rescued” some words I deleted about two weeks prior to that date. Wow.
I took a closer look so I could find my true high word count and it would be the next highest number, 5,208 on August 16, 2013. I remember that day, and I know that was a genuine win.
Well, learn something new most days. Today is apparently one of those days.
I’d still rather beat 5,475. But this does, in fact, make a lot of sense, since I don’t have that same remembered feeling about the 5,475. I was surprised when my record was that high, and it appears now it was for good reason!
Still, back to the stories. I’m going to get started shortly and try to break at least one of those records today. Plus, it’s the first day of my new week and I’m trying to break another 7-day record, and I’m trying to break my monthly record.
Time to shut down my WIFI before I get lost in it!
And it’s 11:19 am and I haven’t written a word. I can still do this. So. Okay. Time to get started. Right now.
12:13 pm : 266
3:00 pm : 1,269
4:22 pm : 1,510
Slow going today! I just don’t see how I’m going to come close to breaking my record when all I want to do right now is nap. Or watch tv. Or do anything but sit here and write. It’s fun when I’m doing it but I just don’t want to focus.
Later…
It’s late, I’m tired, and I haven’t done any writing since 4:22 pm. I wanted to get to 2,000 today. I’m close enough that I should try—only I’m not going to. I’m so tired I just want to go on to sleep. I got up entirely too early today and I just don’t have any energy left.
Tomorrow I’ll try to get to 2,000 earlier in the day.
I promised to watch a movie tomorrow and I’m going to, but I’m also going to write more than I wrote today. The movie is less than 2 hours long, and lunch will be about 2 hours long, so I’ll be unable to work from 10 am to 2 pm. But 7-ish to 10 should give me between 1,000–1,200 words, then 2 to 4 should put me at 2,000–2,400, then 6 to 8 should put me near 3,000–4,200. I’m trying for 4,200.
From now on, though, I think I’m going to make Monday–Friday my primary writing days where I do more than my average. Saturday and Sunday will be reserved for just keeping my mean up and getting a head start on the week’s writing.
UPDATE: Yeah. This record-breaking thing isn’t working so well. I’m either going to have to try again in May or pull off a miracle.
Lucky 13, maybe? Yep, yep. I read a passage from Thinking, Fast and Slow last night about “regression to the mean” and I realized right away that I need to raise my daily word count mean so I can regress to a higher number! ;)
I didn’t read enough of the book to know if there’s anything else in there that I could use, but the fact is, my current mean is 725 words and that’s not even close to where I want to be. I want to be prolific and for me that means I should write at least 2,000 words a day on average. (Of fiction. Who cares what else I write?)
How committed do I feel to reaching this goal? Committed!
On that note, I’m tracking my progress today, because I’m making a concerted effort to break my daily word count record, and it’s my last chance this week to do it since my writing weeks end on Friday and begin again on Saturday. :D
9:21 am : 334**
10:45 am : 775***
6:20 pm : 1,174
*Yeah, you didn’t know there was an attempt #1–12, did you? I never put those posts online. Ah, well.
**Why so slow? Because I’m actually making progress on my stalled out novella! Yay!
***What happened?! I … don’t really know. I felt a compulsion to update a couple of websites I have, which ran terribly slow, and a quickie post or two turned into two and a half hours. Then life stuff had to happen, which happens every day, so no surprise there, and then when I finally got to writing again, it was 5:07 pm and apparently my speed was about 399 words an hour. Yikes!
I’ve promised to watch a movie at 7 pm so that’s going to be it for me, so back to work! The chance of breaking my record today has gone, so now I’m just trying to salvage what I can in my effort to reach and maintain a 2k a day average.
And, nope, didn’t happen. I didn’t get anything additional done on my books. I spent my last 40 minutes adding some of these posts I’ve been doing in Evernote to the real blog.
Writing is not a job.* Just wanted to get that out of the way. :D Now, I want to spend all day writing, and all evening reading, so time to get to it or the day’s going to fade away on me.
Time : word count
9:27 am : 132
10:26 am : 598
12:54 pm : 979
Final : 1,080
I cut one of my fingernails too short when I trimmed them day before yesterday. Ouch. It only started hurting last night, though, so yesterday I probably damaged the quick right below the tip of my nail somehow.
Also, I’m up to unposted b-log number twenty-five. Twenty-five. Boggles the mind.
I’m going to take some time today, later, and post at least a few of them. Otherwise, I’ll probably never post any of them. Don’t be surprised to see some backdated posts after today. :D
I’m dragging and I’m not sure what to do about it. Hmm. Caffeine? Sugar? Exercise? Nap? They all sound like a bad idea just about right now, just another way to avoid writing. Which is funny, in an unfun way, because I actually like where my stories are, but I keep yawning and I’m tired. What to do, what to do…
Here’s a quote from the ever-helpful Joanna Penn:
I can’t keep doing what I doing and expecting a different result. I have to change what I’m doing in order to reach my goals. [sic]
This is exactly why I keep changing my process, and why I always seem to be looking for the next best one, because I can’t stay in the same place and expect to end up somewhere else. :D
Psychologists have found that we are all too quick to use progress as an excuse for taking it easy … that making progress on a goal motivates people to engage in goal-sabotaging behavior.
I have direct experience with this and it’s a horrible, horrible feeling to know you’ve just done something wonderful (like beat your all-time 7-consecutive-day word count record) and then fall down the very next week. It’s hard to get back up after that, and I’m saying that as someone who is trying right now to get back up. Tomorrow is the end of my second week after the fact, and I’ve done so horribly bad on my word counts these last two weeks compared to where I want to be that I want to pretend they don’t even exist.
*I’ll link this to the relevant b-log if I remember. Ha! I remembered. :)
Story #1 : 355
Story #2 : 224
Story #3 : 183
2:01 pm : 762
Story #4 : 96
3:38 pm : 858
Goal for this evening: Get as close to 1,000 words as possible for each of the 4 stories I started on today. :D
Story #5 : 218
9:35 pm : 1,076
Milestone: I’ve written on the most stories in a day since I began working with multiple stories. Too bad this hasn’t translated into more words.
Story #2 : 466
10:33 pm : 1,318
Strangely enough, I’ve been blogging a lot lately, even if I haven’t been posting those posts (hereafter to be called b-logs). :D
I’ve been using Evernote (which I’m still doing for this one, tbh) and just writing the b-logs the same as I was doing on the site, and holding them with the intent of posting when I turned my WIFI back on. But it’s gotten kind of out of control, and I don’t feel a strong desire to post more than a dozen backdated b-logs.
It’s been a relatively good month. I’ve also had a few relatively bad days with my novella. I’m stuck on it, and I’ve had a hell of a time with it since January.
My current experiment
At the moment, I’m schedule free; the way I’ve been working has been working so well for me that I haven’t needed a schedule. :D Happy days…
A few weeks ago, I decided to try writing on multiple stories at once, every day, 800–1,000 words on each of 4 to 6 stories for 3,200–6,000 words.
I’ve increased the number of words I write daily, even if I haven’t been able to work on more than 3 stories most days, or get higher than 3,374 words in one day. But my daily average for April is currently my fifth highest out of twenty-one months of writing. I’ve also finished a novelette and made real progress on one of my bigger novels I need to finish in the next month or two.
I’ve been happy with this, and it’s kept me writing at a nice pace. It feels easy and I don’t know that I can ask for more than that with the lack of motivation to write I’d been feeling the last few months.
Here’s what I do (or try to do)
When I hit a wall with my concentration on one story, I switch to another. I try to do this instead of check email, forums, and blogs for a quick distraction that always ends up being a major time sink.
That’s pretty much the sum total of how I’m handling the different stories.
A lot of times, the writing feels easier when I go back to a story I was working on earlier than it did right before I switched, as if the switch loosened something up and I can now keep going without the same drag I was feeling when I hit the wall. And that’s it.
Week before last, I made it over 3,000 words on 3 days, and over 2,000 on 3 days. I ended that week with my highest 7-consecutive-day total to date of 18,049 words.
Last week wasn’t as good. I lost a big chunk of words when I decided to revisit my languishing novella and cut over 5,000 words from it. I’ve mentioned before that my spreadsheets immediately take deletions into account, and it knocked me back so that I ended last week with 4,523 words.
I had hoped this week would start off well, but it hasn’t. I got stuck on the novella and I haven’t been able to let it go. I’m dragging myself down as I agonize over that book.
I need to finish it; it’s a sequel I’ve already said I was writing; but I can’t seem to get unstuck on it. I’m even toying with the idea of deleting the whole thing and starting over, only I’m not sure how I’d do any better a job with it if I did that. This might be a case of just finishing it and putting it out there so I can get it off my mind.
All that aside, it’s time to get to work. I have stories to write. :D It’s raining today and I like writing to the sound of rain. I’m going to do a separate b-log with today’s summary of progress. Just easier that way! ;D
It’s a sad day when I have to make myself do something I want to do.
I’ve been reading Drive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us (Daniel H. Pink), and although I’m not very far into the book, there’ve been a few lines that have stood out as particularly relevant to me.
“Rewards can deliver a short-term boost—just as a jolt of caffeine can keep you cranking for a few more hours. But the effect wears off—and, worse, can reduce a person’s longer-term motivation to continue the project.”
Of course, the first thing that happened when I read this was I had a strong desire to go make myself a cup of coffee. Then I pondered on the words and it only took me a few seconds to realize I see this happening in my life, a lot. I push aside intrinsic motivation in favor of extrinsic motivation all the time.
I’m already wondering what else this book is going to suggest about the carrot & stick approach to motivation. It’ll be interesting to see if there’s anything here to change how I try to motivate myself to write more.
I need 3,272 words today. This is the day. The day. I’m going to break through that minimum, even if I have to work on 6 different stories to get there. In fact, I want today to be a 5,000 word day. Or 6,000. I don’t remember ever doing a 6,000 word day so that’d be great to break though that barrier.
So, late start. Kind of deliberate, although that wasn’t the plan when I got up. But I’m setting myself up to write as much as I can today and I don’t think I could’ve started at 7. I feel much peppier now though and I’m ready to go.
I’m starting the morning 352 words in the hole because of my short story. I haven’t actually deleted the words yet though because seeing them on the page will keep me from making the same mistakes (I hope!) and my music’s going. :D (Update: I didn’t have to delete those words after all! Yay!)
11:45 am: DONE! At over 3,000 words longer than planned, my short story is finished. :D Whew!
I’m at 576 words for the day.
8:57 pm: I’m not done. The additions/fixes to the novella are coming along nicely, and I’m still writing, but I don’t know for how much longer. I had a lot more downtime than I planned when I set out my goals for the day.
I’m at 1,003 words. Way, way short of my goal today. Contemplating a major deletion so I can keep this new development tight in the story. I think it would work better, but I’m going to have to read through what I’ve got, so … good excuse to end here for some reading. :)
Today’s going to be a great day—after my nap. :D
I need 3,261 words today.
7–9: 0*
12–4: 0**
8–9: 0***
I want to put the finishing touches on my short story and work in a great fix for my novella that I think will solve all my problems with that book, and then, maybe even get some of my 2014 novel #1 written today! Lots to do later.
And … later got later and later while I regretted not getting enough sleep last night, again. I’m tired and I just want to go to sleep and start over tomorrow.
But I’m not going to do that because I already know I’m not going to be a better person tomorrow, and I want to at least keep my 7 day streak alive and that means getting some words written today … and I got a few written and now I’m done. ;) Streak’s alive, but honestly, it’s kind of a joke. 40 words. And a note to myself to delete my last 352, so I’m going to start out in a major hole tomorrow morning. Yay! Something to look forward to.****
*Skipped so I could get some dental work done this morn, and now, it’s time for a nap so I can start fresh and energetic at 12.
**Well, that’s embarrassing.
***Ouch.
****Sarcasm abounds. Sorry. :)
I need 3,254 words today. Still going up and I’ve got to get this under control ASAP.
7–9: 445
12–4: 775
8–910:30: 1,151
I didn’t get all my time in, because I stopped around 8:29 to research something and, uh, yeah. Time gets away. :D
Between 12–4 I really couldn’t concentrate and I had a lot of trouble staying focused. It felt very much like muscle fatigue! So, gotta work on those concentration skills—might be time to pull the timer out again just to keep me focused. :D I think I’ll do that for my 8–9 tonight.
I need 3,245 words today.
I’m going to be quick, because I skipped my 7–9 block this morning. I felt guilty for about 5 minutes and then I didn’t. I wanted to read a book today, so I did. I have a lovely job!
Anyway, no time to linger. I’m about 17 minutes late and I want to use as much of my 12–4 block today to finish my short story! I’m sure I can get it done today, and I had a bit of a breakthrough last night on how to fix my novella—and it’ll require nothing but a sentence or two earlier in the book to set things moving in the right direction and then the rest of the scenes I need to get to the end. ;)
2:11 pm: I’m at 406.
Uh, yeah. I need a nap.
So, I don’t think I got enough sleep last night. 6 hours just doesn’t do it for me, and I didn’t nap. I’m taking a break and I’m going to come back a bit early instead of at 8 pm and try to get in another 2–3 hours before I call it quits today.
Or read another book. :D
Nah, just kidding! I need to finish my short story and I’m so close…
I need 3,237 words today.
Plus some. Because I need to stop the upward creep of my goal and knock it down a bit too.
Extra goal today? Try to maintain at least 500 wph today.
Schedule is off because yeah, I’m just eating breakfast now, so no 7–9 session. However, I don’t really want a break already so I think I’ll just try writing from 9:30–11:30, then break, then try to get back on the schedule at 12.
And I discovered something promising this morning. I woke at daybreak, which is about half an hour or so earlier than sunrise. If I can just get up at daybreak, I’ll be a little behind (but not for long because spring’s on the way and daybreak is coming earlier and earlier every day), but maybe this won’t be as hard for the next few weeks as I was imagining. I just need to get in bed earlier so I don’t want to fall back asleep like I did this morning. :D
11:56 pm: I’m at 181.
I know! But the story is going well, I promise, and I’ve been working. :D This probably comes back to the issue I have where when I finish a story I have to actually be done with it. So as I get closer to the end, I start going back and fixing anything that needs fixing as the end ties things together. A lot of Oh, wouldn’t it be great if I had set this up better… or Shouldn’t I delete that reference because it contradicts this… stuff that I then go back and set up properly or delete. :D I really don’t mind. I do wish I was faster but I really enjoy this so I’m just grateful I’m having fun. I’m so close to finishing this one. It’s so exciting! Now, time to get back to work, it’s 12 pm already!
10:13 pm: I’m at 1,005.
I almost quit at 907 but I thought I’d like to at least finish over 1000 so I could start a streak or something so I pushed on through. I’m glad I did. But now I’ve got to go to sleep so I can wake up bright and early and get back to it. I didn’t have the opportunity today to use any of my free time for writing but I did get my evening hour in, getting a little more than 400 words written during that time! I missed an update somewhere in here but I was just under 600 words when I started my evening hour at about 9 (a little late).
I need 3,233 words today.
Still creeping up! I’ve got to start meeting or exceeding this goal—and soon.
9:59 am: I’m at 208.
Could definitely be better, but it’s going to wait until after a nap. I need one, then an early lunch, before I settle in. I need a lot of words today. :D
Sunrise was 7 am this morning, after being at about 6 am yesterday. As you can imagine, even though I went to bed early last night, I barely dragged out of bed at 7:40 am Daylight Saving Time. Ugh.
If it were yesterday, I’d have gotten started 26 minutes late. But since it’s today, I got started 1 hour and 26 minutes late. Sigh.
Good news is that I’m not really planning to stick to the schedule today anyway mostly because I want to get as much writing done as I can. I’m really enjoying this short story and I’m having so much fun that I woke up thinking about my story every time I cracked my eyes open. Those days had disappeared over the last few months and I’m so glad to see them back!
1:25 pm: I’m at 765.
I’m also coming up on the last 1,300 words of my short story and I definitely think I’ll make it to the end today. :D I really like it!
5:08 pm: I’m at 1,181.
If I’m going to make it to 3,233 today, I’m going to have to write a lot faster for the rest of the night than I’ve done so far. I really should’ve skipped the B&J margarita thingy with lunch. Now I just want to go to sleep. Also, this is the dark side of going off-schedule. Too little pressure to get somewhere before the next break. On that note, I’m taking a break until 6 pm and then going to write diligently from 6–9.
9:07 pm: I’m at 1,633.
I’m not all that thrilled about that, although I admit I got started about an hour late partially because of some unexpected interruptions. The other part of partially was entirely my own fault. And I actually stopped at 8:34 for a quick break and to update this post and discovered all my websites were down. Got a message off to support and got distracted (entirely my own fault again) and then it was 9 pm. Gah.
I’m not fond of quitting when the writing’s still going, so I can’t decide if I should or shouldn’t call it a night…
I think I’ll give it until 9:30 but then it’s definitely over. I need to get to sleep on time tonight because I’d like to be on my schedule tomorrow. Although let’s be honest here, with the Daylight Saving time change still fresh, who knows what will happen in the morning. Until this morning, I’d been waking up without an alarm. I don’t see that happening tomorrow.
10:25 pm: I’m at 1,872.
Yeah. So I didn’t quit when I was supposed to. And I really can’t believe it took me that long to get another 200ish words! What’s crazy is I know I was zoning on this because that hour went by in a blink and I loved every minute of it, but man, if this is my zone speed, I better not plan on being a prolific author unless I want to spend 16 hours a day at the computer.
But I’m calling it now. I’ve got to get to bed. I can tell you now, though, that the schedule is off for the morning 7–9 session. Ain’t no way I’m getting up before 7 am. :D
I need 3,225 words today.
Which, wow, considering that I didn’t maIke my goal last night, isn’t too bad. But 2 separate events today mean I’m going to lose at least 6 hours of potential writing time so I’ve got to be diligent with my time today. Off I go to write!
9:23 am: I’m at 653.
All of those words are on my short story, which is up to 5,749 words. Next goal? 1,500 by 11. Then I gotta do other stuff for a while. :D So I better get cracking.
11:21 am: I’m at 785.
I really wanted to be further along before I had to stop. Ah well. Better than 0!
4:17 pm: Ha. 6 hours of missed writing time was too optimistic. 1 event out of the way and I’ve already lost my entire 12–4 block plus some. I have just about an hour and a half I can use as writing time before the next interruption. I’m off to make good use of my time!
9:29 pm: I’m at 834.
I spent too much time messing around with what I’d already written and barely managed any new words before I had to go. Now that I’m back … I’m giving up! Tired and falling asleep at the keyboard. Just not enough time after getting home from the second event of the day and I was tired before I went.
I need 3,222 words today.
My daily writing quota is still creeping up because I keep failing to make my minimum each day. I’m hoping to get a handle on this soon. But I’ve had to admit my novella was definitely the problem with my lack of motivation to write. The switch to working on the short story yesterday showed me that, and I woke up fired up and ready to write again today. I’m definitely going to have to finish that novella soon but I needed this break!
I’m enjoying writing that short story and since my self-imposed deadline for it was 3/31, I don’t feel that bad going ahead on it while the writing’s going well.
Ah, and I’ve just realized I can’t call this Finish the Book—Day 7 because although I’ve been writing, I haven’t been writing on my novella.
1:24 pm: I’m at 1,126.
Next goal? 3,000 by 4 pm. Let’s see if I can make it. 1 … 2 … 3 … Go!
3:50 pm: I’m at 1,986.
So yeah, not quite 3,000. But I have to pause the writing until about 6 pm at which point I’ll pick it up again because I have time for extra writing time tonight!
Yikes! It’s way past 6 pm because I got caught up in catching up on a forum I participate on. I’ve still got a good hour and a half before I have to hit the sack to get up at 6:15 in the morning so let’s see what I can accomplish. :D
10:41 pm: I’m at 2,414.
Better than yesterday—not anywhere close to where I want to be. It’s a win! :D
I need 3,219 words today. I’m sitting down with my hot cup of tea right now and getting to work.
Dear God, I really hope I can do this without embarrassing myself again. Seriously. I’ve got to break out of this funk before I go broke. :D
Update #1: I wrote til 9:15 am from about 8:13 am. My pace could be a lot better. I didn’t actually feel like I was moving that slow, but I spent way too much time going through my previous two pages trying to solidify where the heck I’m going with this scene. I’m at 194 words.
Update #2: I went back to writing at about 12:15 pm and switched to a short story I have going because I wasn’t happy with my progress on my novella. Then I had to stop because I got a headache and needed an aspirin. I took some time to try to nap away the headache, or at least let the aspirin kick in, and now I’m about to get back to it. I hate that I lost the time, but I don’t get headaches often, so I’m okay with having took the time to rest. My head feels a lot better and I feel refreshed. So that’s great. But I have a looong way to go to get to 3,219. Next goal? Write faster! I’m at 516 words.
Update #3: I wrote from about 3:20 pm to 6 pm. I’m taking a short break for food before digging back in and sticking with it until 8, so there’ll be one more update for sure. But all my writing this time has been on the short story, not my novella, but … I did want this short done before 3/31 so hey, it’s a win, right? :D My pace is still so far off my average that I have to wonder if my creative brain froze during all that unusual cold weather we had! :O I’m at 1,456 words.
Update #4: I forgot to put in my last update last night but here it is now. I made it to 2,319 words.
Not quite as many as I needed but a lot more than I’ve been getting and the most in nearly two weeks. So, I’m calling the day a win. :D
I took the original day 5 and 6 off. I’m just skipping them entirely and counting today as day 5, although I’m not sure I should. I mean, it’s already 4:28 pm and I haven’t written a thing other than this and I’m really not in a place where I can start right now so it’ll be at least a few hours before I can. Why do I do this to myself?
This is one of those days that started out with me being determined—determined, I tell you—to get things off to a great start and then … just not doing it. I have absolutely no explanation for why, other than that I just didn’t want to sit down and write.* I feel really bad about that now.
I need a better way to handle these setbacks. I’m sure not getting anywhere when I let them derail me for the entire day—or days, as the case may be! :o I’d rather not waste any more energy on guilt. So.
Here’s an idea. I think I’m going to have to accept that some days I’m just not going to stick to the schedule and that it’s okay to work outside my schedule on those days without that meaning my entire schedule is broken and needs fixed. Just try to do the schedule as often as possible, but if I screw up and don’t, then just concentrate on getting my word counts for the day any way I can. Because in the end, getting new words as often as possible is what really matters the most.
So. Now I have to make an effort to remember this thought every day so I can quit letting guilt sabotage me.
I need 3,208 words today. How close can I get to that considering the day I’ve had so far? It’s going to be interesting to see if I have any grit left at all. Sometimes I feel like I left it all back in 2013!
7–9: 0
12–4: 0
8–9: 0
Time deficit: 420 minutes
Pace: n/a
Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get to the writing. It’s 9:48 pm and if I don’t go to bed, getting up for an early start tomorrow would be out of the question. However, tomorrow I’m not going to be a different person than I was today, so I think I need a plan. Off to figure one out.
*I read another one of my books instead, the last of the series I’m supposed to pick up after I finish this one and the next one, but which could end up being my next book anyway. I feel much more drawn to that next story. Or maybe I’ll just try working on two books at once for a while to try to pump up my word counts. Less likely to get stuck when I allow myself more freedom.
I’m still not getting started most mornings like I should and I’m consistently missing my 8–9 session.
High impulsiveness is a big part of this problem, I think. I always intend to get started right away in the mornings, but when it’s actually time, there’s just one more thing I need to finish up first before I can sit down and get to it.
I bailed on yesterday’s writing, and I skipped today deliberately. My kids were home from school again because of school admin days or some such thing, but I already know I can write with them around at least well enough to finish a book so I’m not sure why I took the time off. I shouldn’t have, but I did anyway.
It’s 8:41 pm and I’m writing this instead of writing fiction. Yeah. Not sure what I was thinking when I started this considering it was almost exactly 8 at the time. I can’t even believe it’s been 41 minutes and yet, objectively, I know it has been. Just how many paragraphs have I written and deleted to have only gotten a word count for this post of 189 in 41 minutes?!
Way too many!
I’m thinking of how I can mitigate these issues so I don’t start feeling like my schedule isn’t working for me. Just because I like it doesn’t mean it works and that would be a terrible shame considering exactly how much I do like it!
Tomorrow I need to make every effort to stick to the schedule and squeeze all the writing time out of it I can. It’ll be good for morale. ;) Maybe I can start a success spiral—and show some grit. Practice focusing.
Sounds like a plan!