I took the original day 5 and 6 off. I’m just skipping them entirely and counting today as day 5, although I’m not sure I should. I mean, it’s already 4:28 pm and I haven’t written a thing other than this and I’m really not in a place where I can start right now so it’ll be at least a few hours before I can. Why do I do this to myself?
This is one of those days that started out with me being determined—determined, I tell you—to get things off to a great start and then … just not doing it. I have absolutely no explanation for why, other than that I just didn’t want to sit down and write.* I feel really bad about that now.
I need a better way to handle these setbacks. I’m sure not getting anywhere when I let them derail me for the entire day—or days, as the case may be! :o I’d rather not waste any more energy on guilt. So.
Here’s an idea. I think I’m going to have to accept that some days I’m just not going to stick to the schedule and that it’s okay to work outside my schedule on those days without that meaning my entire schedule is broken and needs fixed. Just try to do the schedule as often as possible, but if I screw up and don’t, then just concentrate on getting my word counts for the day any way I can. Because in the end, getting new words as often as possible is what really matters the most.
So. Now I have to make an effort to remember this thought every day so I can quit letting guilt sabotage me.
I need 3,208 words today. How close can I get to that considering the day I’ve had so far? It’s going to be interesting to see if I have any grit left at all. Sometimes I feel like I left it all back in 2013!
Time deficit: 420 minutes
Unfortunately I wasn’t able to get to the writing. It’s 9:48 pm and if I don’t go to bed, getting up for an early start tomorrow would be out of the question. However, tomorrow I’m not going to be a different person than I was today, so I think I need a plan. Off to figure one out.
*I read another one of my books instead, the last of the series I’m supposed to pick up after I finish this one and the next one, but which could end up being my next book anyway. I feel much more drawn to that next story. Or maybe I’ll just try working on two books at once for a while to try to pump up my word counts. Less likely to get stuck when I allow myself more freedom.