I wish I knew the answer to the question in the title of this blog post, but I do not.
I have a suspicion, though, and it’s a bit unnerving to think about.
I don’t think I’m having fun with writing at the moment.
Not with this book, not with writing fiction in general, not with publishing and the biz.
I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and I think I know why but I’m having trouble getting past it.
I worry too much about writing a good story. I worry too much about perfectionism. I worry too much about the procrastination I do and feel guilty because I do it instead of writing.
I worry about what other people will think of my story when it’s finished and finally out in the world. Even though I really don’t care what people think of it. Except obviously I do. But I don’t! But I must.
Too much worry!
How can one have fun when it’s all worry, worry, worry?
Anyway, time to go do some writing, because I’ve been feeling guilty for not doing any. And because I really need to finish a book and I’ve let myself get into a situation that I’m not sure I can get out of.
I’ll let you know if it works out.
Oh, and by the way, I updated this site to use HTTPS but I’ll be honest, part of me really regrets even having thought it was necessary. I’m really bothered by the idea that older browsers will throw a certificate warning with my particular set up (a free Let’s Encrypt certificate and no unique IP because this site earns $0 toward its own upkeep). I mean, I like having this site, but I don’t earn anything from it. :)
The reason the certificate warning bothers me so much is because I personally still have and use occasionally two older Vista computers, an Android phone using Android 2.3.4 (as a media device, because it’s not my primary phone anymore), and a laptop running Windows ME (I know, but yes, it really still works! Believe it or not, it will load Word and Excel faster than any other computer I have, although they are the 2000 versions). I checked out my site on the old Android device and sure enough, error, error, error with the certificate. I tried Vista, and same thing, error, error, error. I don’t get online with the Windows ME computer, just because it requires a cable and I’d hate to see what kind of trouble the outdated browsers would get into if I did. ;)
But I really don’t like knowing people using older software are going to get scary warnings when they visit my website.
Finally, the site is just slower on first load. It really speeds up after that, but frankly, if I was a visitor to a random site that took that long to load at first, it’s very possible I’d have already hit the back button.
All that to say I’m this close to just scrapping the whole project and going back to HTTP.
It wouldn’t be that difficult. I’d just reverse what I did to set it up.
First, I changed the General site settings in WordPress, changing my site url from https://www.perpetualized.com to https://www.perpetualized.com.
Second, I ran a couple of SQL queries on my WordPress database to change out the http for https where it was needed.
Third, I’d need to take out a few lines I had to add to my .htaccess file.
I could undo it all in half an hour or less.
Gah. I’m really considering it.
Anyway, time to go write and get this crap off my mind. It’s driving me bonkers.